My mind is fully messy... T.T

Sometimes, I got hard time writing something. Many ideas are in my head, but I don’t know how to bring out. Usually in this case, my mind is messy or I am tired. Yesterday and today are the days which I mentioned above. A! There is one more. Something is too private, I cannot write. I don’t want to show my weakness to other. I don’t know why. I guess that the reason is that since when I was young, I cannot express my problem to other. My mother is always busy to works and my sister was young. Thus I could not share it with them. And if I show my problem or agony, my mother will get hardship. I really didn’t want to bother my mother because, she really worked hard for us; she was always tired.

Anyway, today my mind is too messy; I think about something. So I cannot write something properly. Even I can feel that this essay is also messy.